Death

Great title, right? Definitely an uplifting one... People deal with death in so many different ways. Sometimes they get really sad and withdrawn, others grow closer to their family and friends, others get mad and angry, still others experience a number of these emotions throughout the course of 'coping'.

The first time I really experienced Death I was in the 8th Grade, and I was there when my Uncle ultimately lost his 1 year battle with cancer. I remember withdrawing some from my friends, mainly because my boyfriend dumped me because I wasn't 'available'. I have experience death in my life a number of times since then, and have learned to deal with my emotions, and move on, going to the funeral itself always helps me to cope.

At 25 my husband has yet to 'experience' death, he has all his uncles, aunt, grandparents, immediate family, but that could be coming to an end very soon. His Grandfather (aka Grandaddy) has been recently moved to hospice care, and they don't think it will be very long (a few days, maybe a week). I am really concerned how Jonathan will handle this. I have seem him with a range of emotions, happy, frustrated, angry, disapointed, but sad is an emotion I haven't really seem (unless you count when I dumped him in the 9th grade).

I tried to pray for him yesterday, but at first I was lost at what to pray for. I didn't want to pray for Grandaddy to live because I know he's in pain, I didn't want to pray for him to 'go on to a better place' because I know how much that will hurt Jonathan, and Praying for Jonathan to 'get through it' just didn't seem appropriate either. I finally decided to pray that this experience brings him closer to God.

Through our relationship (the second time) Jonathan has always struggled with his relationship with God, while he definitely believes in 'him', he has never really had much beyond that. So hopefully my prayer will be answered, and something good will come out of this devastating experience for him. Fingers crossed!