In terms of females, I am definitely one of the most competitive I know, second only to olympic althetes and Pat Summit, but I have recently realized, this is not a good thing... I always felt like my competetive spirit made me work harder, and push to be the best, but as it turns out I think it just makes me over analyze situations, and push to hard at the beginning, saving nothing for the end.
This most recently hindered my performance during the 5K I ran in Norfolk over the weekend. I was very hot and if you humidity could be over 100%, I think it was. This did not deter me from worming my way to the front of the pack before the race began, and then trying to keep up with those in the front who were use to running the 5K at a 7 minute mile pace. I lasted for a good 1/2 mile before I realized we had only ran a half mile, and I was completely out of breath. Now I don't mean to brag or sound like I'm some amazing athlete, but I can regularly run 3 miles without killing myself, so being dead after a 1/2 mile, this is not good...
I was talking to my mom after the run, and how I felt this deep drive that I had to run as fast as everyone and as they passed me, I was a failure, and she said, in her typically endearing way "you need to get over that" and then continued with "you know those blinder things they have for horses, you need those!"
She was pretty funny, but she was also right. I need to figure out a way to put blinders on myself, not just in running, but also in life. I'm always so concerned with be happier, stronger, more successful, and just plain better than (fill in the blank person). I really want to keep my drive, but be concerned with the goals I set for myself, and not how well someone else is doing at achieving them.
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good post. It's funny you wrote about this, because we talked about it a bit at our community group this week. we watched revolutionary road and we this was something we talked about in relation to the movie.
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